Hi Guys. I’m sure many of you have noticed rather a prolonged absence from me these last few months. I’m not going to lie – they have been tough. Lots of changes, and many more to come also. As I’m sure I told you, just before the summer holidays, we lost DH’s Grandfather. A few days after the funeral, my mother was rushed to hospital seriously ill and underwent major theatre to remove 8 blood clots from her leg!
Then into the summer we went, and I was not as prepared for it as I would like. As the kids get older, there seems to be less activities for them. And I had gotten myself involved with so many design teams, I was struggling to keep up.
I made it through the summer, but added yet another bundle to my load – a part time job! I knew that my Stampin’ Up! job kept me rather isolated, and that would only worsen as my kids became more independent. So I was keen to involve myself outside the home (and the money won’t go amiss either), but it was just another thing to add!
However, just 4 days into the new term, I got one of those ‘too early to be good news’ phone calls. My own Grandmother had had a huge stroke overnight and was not expected to last the day. If I wanted to see her, I had to go now. And go I went. After a convoluted journey – my Dad’s car, which we travelling in, got hit by a huge stone and smashed the windscreen, so we had to return to my house for my car. We made it with an hour to spare, but with that, I lost my last remaining grandparent. That one seemed harder – maybe it’s because you know the next line is your own parents?
My own children are now older too, so they are greater affected, and ask more questions too! With their age, also comes changes for them. We had to apply for their secondary school places by the end of October. Where I grew up, there was only one secondary school; so that’s where you went. Here, where we live, they had the choice of 6! Choosing the right school for them was tricky. And because I’m choosing for twins, maybe harder still? Should they go to the same school or different? What’s the best school for them individually? If different, what about the logistics of getting them there? In the end, they both chose the same school; and so the 4 month wait to see if they get their choice begins!
But that means we’ve hit November already. And all 4 of us in our house still have our birthdays to come before Christmas! So, I’ve hit my busiest time already way, way behind!
To ease the load, I’ve taken sabbaticals from several design teams, stood down from a few, and turned down some new ones – event though I want to yes to them all! I’ve pretty much stopped blogging, FB’ing etc and I still can’t keep up! Can you say ‘burnout’?
I have questioned several times whether I should give up SU! Not because I don’t love it, but because the reasons why I joined are not the reasons why I stay. And I’m not sure the reasons why I stay are good enough any more. What have I decided? No idea – it changes daily! Some days, I’m ready to quit; some days, I’m heart broken at just the thought. I thought I didn’t miss blogging, until I wrote a blog post for Sunday (watch out for it!) and realised that I did.
I know I just need to take some time to figure out what I want, and how to achieve it. So it means you’ll probably continue to see only a little from me for a while longer whilst I work out what that is. I will be attending OnStage next week, and I’m excited about that, so maybe that’ll help me – we’ll see.
I’ll blog when I can, and I hope you’ll enjoy hearing from me. Check for a new post on Sunday for Creation Station. It’s all about Packaging, so I couldn’t miss that! Til then,